a letter you’ll never read.

Airs and social graces, elocution so divine.
I’ll stick to my needle, and my favourite waste of time,
both spineless and sublime.

rest of the posts are up to date and below.

xoxo,
B.

The past month has gone by like a blur and it to put it blandly, I was in too deep before I even knew I had started. I’m so knee deep in issues/worries, no matter how trivial they might be to really get set on anything.

but, I like going on outings with people where we can stretch like cats and talk, where I wish I could freeze time, freeze that very moment cause the moment we leave out cocoon of warmth, Reality sets in.

Along the way, I’ve learnt that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed.

I think people look the most beautiful when they’re crying/doing rubbish things cause then they’re the most real, because gorgeous people are intimidating and not within my reach.

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love quotes are dumb. loving someone probably sucks dick, cause liking someone alone sucks balls, it’ll probably be x1000000000000 worse

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I want a day with my closest friends where we look/make pretty pictures, talk pretty things, wear pretty linen dresses and eat pretty, dainty cupcakes which leave whipped cream at the sides of your mouth.

hate this part./

1. omg I’m scared that we can’t make 100 masks by 1pm tomorrow! must. keep. on. praying. ^^
2. ahh I’m stuck under this shitload of homework to do.
3. I keep postponing/cancelling outings cause I’m in a CONUNDRUM.
4. must, must solve personal issues or I. WILL. NEVER. GET. OUT. OF. THIS. RUT.
5. have been constantly pushing back the fact that O’S ARE NEXT YEAR, I HAVEN’T STARTED PLANNING FOR NEXT YR YET!
6. this weather sucks k, I can’t even walk to school anymore = damn grumpy cause it’s like my fix to all my worries of th day.
7. I borrowed a ton of books but I have been dilly dallying on the same one for the past week now; I seem to want to be savouring each interaction between Mr Thornton & Margaret.
8. I have a… feeling. not those ones that we get most of the time, but a shit-something’s-gonna-happen-esque-greys-anatomy-bomb-in-a-body one.
9. Please don’t ask me for the passwords of my posts because they’re locked FOR A REASON :]
10. omgggggggggggg I think I’m obsessed with Kim Bum!

and wow to anyone who read that whole chunk!

cause we’ll always be better together 8D

Bestfriend!

it’s been a super long time since I’ve dedicated a post to you so I shall be nice ^^

cheer up, yeah! cause even when the stars stop shining, the poets run out of rhyme I’ll still love you! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

I’m going to make up a quote for you since that cheers you up a lot.

“When we say disappointment, we mean feeling so crushed that you berate yourself for letting yourself hope. But the thing about life is that without disappointment, you’ll never know what it feels like when someone doesn’t let you down, without being hurt and upset and halfway to the point, you’ll never grasp happiness. And without this experience/poppycock you won’t ever be true to yourself. epiphanies are usually born in situations of little or no hope. so hold on, move on and pull yourself to your feet.”

spent the day with Moses. she’s so weird.

KIMBUM SO CUTE! 8D8D

I keep re-reading it in hopes of knowing what went wrong.

(or is it just me?)

I’m seriously fucked up

I see your screen name and there’s this hole inside my heart. I can lie all I want, I can tell people that you don’t matter to me any more, but you do. why’d you have to go screw up the arrangement we had?

I seem to thrive from it though, the feeling of humanity. the nausea in my stomach, the uncertainty and the now familiar pangs of hurt.

why do i love you, don’t even want to ):

B I N D H U says (9:12 PM):
there was this wedding
then i stared at him
HAHAHAHAH
{ ANNIE❤; } Unexplainable, kind of unattainable when the person you love ain’t enough. says (9:12 PM):
OMG
LOL
LOL
LOL
you know what
{ ANNIE❤; } Unexplainable, kind of unattainable when the person you love ain’t enough. says (9:13 PM):
i realize that
it’s either i’m really like just blur or something
or i didn’t pick up on it
like this guy in my church, he asked me to join his group for this game thing last time
and i said okay and he asked for my number
i didn’t think that he actually liked me that’s why he did that -__-
i thought he was just being nice
so dumb right.
B I N D H U says (9:13 PM):
you’re quite smart
{ ANNIE❤; } Unexplainable, kind of unattainable when the person you love ain’t enough. says (9:13 PM):
so actually if we do that to guys.. THEY WON”T KNOW
COS” THEY”RE EXTREMELY DUMB

I shall now endeavour to make my blog happy :0